Day 16... Someone that's not in your state or country

Lamar--

Its so funny to call you friend, after all that we went through sometimes I wonder why the hell we're cool at all. Does that mean we're fooling ourselves and holding on really for the sake of holding on? Lets be real here... Most people who have been through the type of relationship we had end up flat out hating each other real talk. We dated for 2 years and although there were a few good times they were few and far between. I won't go into all the BS cause you still get upset when we talk about our relationship history. "TiTi we did have some good times... Stop acting like that." I think I hear that line every time we talk... I see that line every time we're chatting on line.... Messaging on Facebook whatever. Sometimes I think you're actually trying to convince yourself more so than me.

Anyway I'm only writing you to tell you even after all of the bullish you've put me through... I still don't want anything to happen to you. I pray for you all the time, Lord bring him home, Lord keep him safe... God bring Lamar home to his babies. I think you've grown so much over the years and I can't help but be proud of you. I just don't understand why your tours of duty always end up being so long. What the heck man? You leave for a year... 18 months later you call to tell me your tour has been extended again. Really?!? I need the government to get a normal calendar... since their year seems to have 730 days. This time is no different, I actually get nervous when weeks go by and I haven't heard from you... I really need you to stop doing that. You're over seas fighting for this country I get it I understand it, your free time goes to the kids first... But I need to be somewhere on the list. Even if its just a message saying I'm still alive and made it another day.

Get it together MAN

Tisiphani